Hell, I didn't think it would be this hard to write something about myself. I've been backspacing here for the past 30 minutes. Since I dont really play Outlaws anymore, I didnt want to write about that. I guess that leaves bullshit about me in general. I'm 21, in college studying History, and really jaded with life. Sometimes I think the only things truly beautiful about this world are music and a cold beer. Don't study history, it just leads to depression.
I took the nickname spectre because sometimes I feel like one; Not part of this world but looking in from the outside, invisible to those around me. There is so much hatred and bullshit in the world, caused by such a small minority of people. All it takes is one person to push the proverbial red button, and that frightens me. I just cant comprehend some things. For instance, I live in New York right now. You don't know how sad it is to see an 80-year old woman shivering on the doorstep of a 20-story penthouse, being ignored by the rich people and their doorman. The discrepancy of rich and poor in our society is sickening.
Music and my friends, however, keep me happy. There is nothing more valuable in this entire shitty world then your best friends or your favorite band. Even the people I have met online and can consider my friends are part of that. Hence SyN and this damn shitty site; this isnt about Outlaws or any other god damn game, it's about the people I consider to be good parts of an otherwise evil world.
Not sure what else would be worth writing here...Hope I havent depressed anyone, that was not my goal. If anything, I hope the opposite. Take joy in your friends and family, dont judge them, and never turn your back on them. They are the only ones that will have a heart for you in a cold, cruel, and selfish world.
For those that are curious, my name is James Mulvey, and I'm currently
living in New York City.
-spectre
